On Writing a Book

Why being invalidated will make me an author

maybe we shouldn’t share everything. i mean to me the blog was always ubiquitous and slow - no woman dared to show themselves on a wordpress in 2008 or whatever - and idk something about where social media has gotten is just so out proportion to what the intellect of a blogger would want then -

i mean sure everyone wants to be paid for their work but the work itself was really the guts of the operation not a funneling

operation of a team of people behind the face of a parasocial relationship for those afraid to walk out of the doors to the outside

and even the audience of said blogs back then were really only read by people today who are invalidated themselves - people who would read about indie music, pottery, or underwater basket weaving a type of nerd who worked in private away from the public gaze this was a forum for learning what could a normie find at all interesting about this

i could never expect to get any validation on earth through my online activities but our curious nature was never really about getting that. at the time of the blogs back then say you were making some money on writing the things inside the computer felt far away. througholy enjoying the reading but fuck dont want to meet the author.

today is different. its weird it is all about the author

and under the right circumstances you can easily reach out and fuck them

being able to reach into computer warps the writing. the prose if you will. this probably is why writing doesnt even teach anything anymore. beyta males who simp for women and POC are upset THEY are not getting VALIDATED for being GOOD men (again the vanity of the author not the content of the author) or the reverse that the author doesnt do much is just reaching out through the computer and fucking.

i don’t want to reveal much about any of the work i am thinking of writing long content about - and i like writing daily because i feel like it is sharpening my brain with sobriety and i have to re work my spiritualism. again. writing drinking beer is like wow i am so interesting im inspired

writing sober is a lot of rough drafts and crybaby inward looking and i am skeptical of what i write which is good. i think if your going to write something longer there is no middle ground. but that is like sign of the times tho so contemporary nothing feels middle ground anymore

for me less fucking through the computer - validation is a curse not a gift - silence is a gift our own ideas may actually take years of sitting alone, in the dark.