never being e famous

the best thing to ever happen to me

i had a pretty internal week i gotta lot things to deal with who doesnt

but this week especially of today i have an appreciation for what im doing it simply is not time to give up not even close

lots of the things i think a lot of people do in 2025 is for some form of validation - or some weird scam monetary game but i also see two things - especially in trading is being a shut in the best there is some good intel to pick up on but you also have to be super fucking skeptical - and be in it for YOU

you know i have been on some online communities for sure and i agree and disagree on some things - but my own personal bias has to be the right thing and belief in myself my continuing thought and story is the most important - that is how my life just keeps getting better i never plan to get new subs or even write in a way that gains them - there was some of that when i started this - this feeling has left me and i know for sure substack wont ‘naturally’ promote my writing or whatever but im pretty ok with that because that is what this lifestyle is - about getting my life where i want it in the best way i know possible and dealing with my psychology in the best way possible - and lots of people in my life - if they are still around - i know they will not understand but that is ok i am just not personally ok with failing at anything im doing right now - my personal grace period is over

yes being online sometimes is insane and such pleb behavior but also you miss out of so many other things - SPY 0.00%↑ was my short position did not hold for to long (funeral today RIP GRANDMA) but this bias was just such a me thing from seeing where things would go in my own head and imagination - it is important i try and get right and patient - then i go on to twitter i see people losing shit tons of money and there is just so opportunity to capitalize - if you know upside and down side which was always the plan you see or how i started to see the world in terms of the world

we are so attached to NVDA 0.00%↑ making our 401k increase a better retirement or have this super heady short position to make millions and they both are valid - but the best way and the way i see it to really approach it IS to print to infinity to a place where everything is plentiful - but mostly that it came from myself and i had a good time - maybe PLTR 0.00%↑ hit $300 next year - this doesnt matter what matters more is catching moves and licking up sentiment -

its chart - but not all charts - its news - but it isnt all news - and really its a lot of magic -

then there is the thing too i see so much stuff that makes me laugh whether it B the H1B debate online and they are having these arguments with retarded indian boomers about it or maybe its like some actual mongoloid radfem tubby talking about her “philosphy” on what men should do or some indian comedian who found out his wife made pornos in college and he thought she was a virgin

the world is just nuts right - but these things dont matter what matters to this sensitive old man is im building - im free of it all - i care about what no woman thinks or i dont care to argue if the holocaust happened and getting all the details

im going to get a nice car. i only date girls with bangs. i will probably never marry. i am a cowboy and i cant be pulled in any direction. fuck credit score. a true rebel of the times - i dont need an audience - i just need to blow some steam off in healthier ways. maybe one screw driver at night instead of the 4 tall IPAS. maybe semen retention because i should not be lusting not for morality but becauses ummmm the bag bro$$$$

i watched my grandmother go into the ground and she was a really good lady. then i played tag with my niece, my daughter, and my grandpa who is 80. these are the times that matter no matter how small the wins. life is about, in 2025, its about being you and having a good time. i was thinking about how different life was for my grandparents generation. wild. so many salty young people arguing about housing prices. not trying to dis them but i cant walk around with the hate in my heart. yes my life is fucking weird. i am a single parent with the offspring of a jewish sex worker drug addict. but all i see is the child of an angel. she is an angel. its about having fun. there is no war unless the gun is in your hand or then its inside your head

im super glad none of my things worked and i never gained notoriety. i get a peace in life and im gonna make a lot more money this way but the way i always wanted. i get to trade QQQ 0.00%↑ from starlink in some dilapidated house in bumfuck pennsylvania and thats all i want. a rangerover in a sea of fords. a christmas tree farm. or maybe ill get a penthouse in my downtown and live at the bar below constantly drunk. what matters is it is what i choose