imagination problems
rethinking substack
this week was really good all in all - pissed about $6000 falling through my hands but to be honest i am really rethinking jus a lot of things,
i mean first off the trade was really like a $30,000-$60,000 trade but that is due from the fact that i have been scalping all week for a total of $500 so i still walk away with some cash not the biggest deal
on one hand these trades are really rarely and buil from like a week or so of exhaustion or pent up short pressure - and here i am picking up pennies from a steam roller. you have two sides of the coin trades that ACTUALLY change you situation or the nice “extra $300 a day” that i have been posting which are hypothetically good right - i mean what i make $2000 this week between the job and the other stuff
i have also been possible maybe focusing on trading less because i have been spending way to much time texting women/reading women core in hopes of some understanding but believe me no one gives a shit about this blog -and the thing is no one actually gets rich from the trading i was doing this week.
like it is easier said then done but if i were really smart i would take some time off trading i mean to see if i can spot some insane trends and posting on these blogs isnt really the way
and over trading, i must always remember the most money i ever made doing this was absolutely from doing like ONE trade every two weeks…. think about that because god every trade should be like you do not enter the trade to just get a quick buck. it really is a huge waste of time to do this. its emotionally exhausting, makes you miss bigger moves ect -
so usually when a person like myself misses a giant move the thing is to like get into some other trade first thing monday honestly i really dont feel like it. i cant really talk to anyone about my search for gold. i see it tho i see it. $80-$3000 is not really replicable in any other business but also there is so much fucking noise i dont even think that anyone really catches these moves if they catch them and have the patience im telling you no one knows - the buys are like to obscure and get mixed in with the people who end up buying the move as it progresses - so again posting online is a mute point - the literal best thing about trading IS the insane gains. it is not supposed to be a fun money generator.
atleast i will give myself some good pointers- i for sure protected the capital i still have all my money - thats probably the hardest hurdle for someone to get over.,
as you can see in my earlier post its like your developing two muscles the first muscles is like this ability to not wish for things back and to fucking cut stuff. like this game literally requires money - if you dont have money you cant play. so losses need to be fucking squished right - like if something goes against you you need to fucking squash that shit like a fucking insect - or if you are unsure of something you need to squash that - thats what today was - the call was against me and came to a level and never came back up to the original a loss but a small loss this muscle needs to be fucking sharpened so you can say that was right -
next we move onto what exactly i am trading - i 1000 guarantee that $SPX options are defiantly the paying choice - only reason why my shit even came back in the first place or i was able to cut it - i have lost a ton of fucking money this year on $SPY $QQQ options like they can work it is jsut ever so rearely they do on the ODTE spectrum - SPX just have to be a little right and there is room for dead options to come back
now we move on to the hard hardest part that i sort of had but defiantly lost a bit of - which does require a close look at things - this thing is imagination itself. so ideally - right - life is never ideal - im trying to trade with like 1000 things going on - and not be like some weirdo shut it. ok,. what we are looking for is trades
we are looking for trades that minimum - generate 300% - thats it end of story - we are not looking for trades to get a quick scalp - you must understand i am a single parent old man who just wants money for beers and dinner with beautiful women but simply this is what the problem itself is - you see it is
a lack of imagination
now say everything is possible within the laws of physics - these things do happen but i simply see market open and im just trying make a little guess and call and see if i can make $300 there is just so much more out there
i also know tho- i mean i give myself grace right - i do have a ton of shit going on. im like trying to juggle all this stuff but again thats where it comes down to like in trading so next week with $1700 or even say $1000 can we find that ONE trade that does $5000 - instead of this whole fucking mental drama i put myself through on a daily basis to get an extra $500 a day is it maybe easier - but im not trying to be easier im just sitting here and seeing what i say this week thinking i simply need to stretch my imagination -
i would see a little bit of this trading online but come to thing about it….. it rarely makes sense because to trade this way….. this isnt flashy what im talking about this is like some serious shit and we are looking for that high or (low) flying ODTE trade that creates 1000% once a week
so if anything - today was liberating and is making rethink how i see the week - inversing the patterns you know - i had the right idea but just way too early for maximum pain all this stuff is just down stream from the most fucking worst fucking imaginable pain possible on the side on retail AND and on the side of long positions.
im still woo woo as i write this - the important part is like dam i guess i cant crank the hog to porn later and just be like welp i tried this week i think the worst part right now is to walk away that i ended the week simply paying for the over priced draft beer that i bought - or maybe im looking at it wrong that actually the lesson i learned is literally so profound it will truly lead to my rise as a trader imagine 1000-,10,100,-100,000 -1.000,000 and like i just do not think it is from scalping OR even the opposite is saving a bunch of money for a spray and pray - they both are not it so this $30 i made all in all this week but this is the lesson and i must be woo woo to see that i should be fucking thank full to sit back - analyse what the fuck happened this week to go where no man has gone before we are not trading stock we are trading the index and are looking for an insane trade and looking to hold that trade
they say to not time the market and it leads to ruin but i am just so curious as to can i now sit back and have enough patience to sit in my rumination before monday rolls around and to NOT enter anything then and to SIT BACK and see what unfolds again like i said to hit those trades that actualy print -
i also think i might think about the novel more - something science fiction or atleast in the grit of the future - i cannot have trading be the basis of the blog - nor my utter disgust at modern women like again both of them right - its like dealing with cats - you gonnna have a good time with women if you resent them ? will you have a good time with the market if you. expect it to be this little pay piggy and not respect what great things it can do -
i wish i could stay at the bar longer but i must go be a father - i must go be a person and all i want is simply a day off ….