hands of God

lessons

a good lesson in this

the market just is in no rush even if you are right

after making about $500 or so this week lost $400

i was being way to trigger happy - so im more or less back to where i was before

begs the question how worth this sort of thing is in the larger picture -

yet the way the position went against me the market kept tumbling -

the entries really are when the most amount of pain is displaced.

we ran so hard so when it starts tumbling tough to know when to get bullish again

but i also fear i am wasting too much time on this

in some respects this stuff is very much like the less you want it the more it works and scalping is essentially picking up pennies in front of a steam roller and that seems to be really true

like eventually youll have what happened to me today happen to you

but like one thing that was really good was my position sizing is really good.

like this whole account would be gone if it were to be in that one entry

also i just went back and if i would have held i would have made serious cash

sigh

so much for believing in myself

but it also really comes from just again like the need to participate and not letting things run there course - something i just have to deal with right now

because idk goddamit

so much going on

sister comes to live with me for a week

funerals

my calls just went in the money

god

fucking

dammit

well what went right - so i defiantly i mean - my account is in tact - i guess we can call this training - right -

so we can start off there even thou i felt like i really put in the work to make something like this

but cant stop believing

i will probably go have a beer when i can today

so pissed

but being pissed leads to more bad decisions

and bad trades

fuck me