get ready to be alone and fully responsible

some insights and self reflection on grit

The small amount i doubled in a week got wrecked earlier today -

it is not the biggest deal in the world.

there is only one lesson

admit when you are wrong

thing is this could have been -$50

if anything ive been taking really “easy trades” and literally got blind sided and just let it balloon out. remember this style of making money is literally design to “wish it comes back”

here is the truth

it doesnt come back

and i think this is important. nothing we knew about life before 2025 is coming back.

every time i open up a computer it is just seas of wojaks, femcels, cat ladies, nazi wanna bees all with their own very special “snow flake” form of babyism (me included)

i started this tiny tiny baby account as like a test to see how IbKR would would so im not gonna shoot myself about this.

but this is a very important lesson to me with it comes to grit, doing it on your own, and taking the higher path. there have been parts of my life with higher great or low to be celebrated with like drugs of some sort or

even worse to talk with people online of our “new strategy”

all these things for me are just clinging to the past.

i am so glad i dont have instagram.

i can still trade this account (hell im gonna wire more money into it)

i think im going to get regular massages and try mediation and quit caffeine and nicotine

i hate seeing people say

“boomers took it all, evertything sucks, why bother trying, im gonna doom scroll, everything is a scam.”

bro thats not where this story goes.

this is where grit can shine and you can read my slop and be inspired.

but i still think talking about trading is cringy. kinda ruins the whole “keep it close to the chest”

but writing itself is so beautiful and the weirdos who engagement bait on here that tell you “just write for yourself” do have a point though their reasons for doing so are dodgy.

dont you ever just read books not to talk about them just to have fun. ever just write stuff to fill an existential void that scrolling cant fill and modernity leaves out of reach.

its not even that i am tired or really need rest. hell i dont even think it is screens themselves that are that bad. it is for sure something else that is a little more addictive.

So im just writing this to have fun and warm up and see where this goes. i have a lot of different directions i want to go in - im not sad or anything. lol. it is just so weird out here