abused old man for millenial burgers

starving old man

as i roamed the streets all weekend i was hungry and thirsty

i just wanted some alcohol and a burger - then as the weekend went on i couldnt stand the alcohol anymore which is a good thing - im developing this hatred for alcohol like i have for the cigs and vapes or whatever i use to consume - but i am so hungry and thirsty

then i come to some whole in the wall bar where they had $8 beers that tasted horrible (they never clean there lines) served by a waitress whos best years are much past her. still thin but wrinkled from the crystal meth use and cigerette smoking

i ask “do you also charge for soda water in which she says in the most total bitch tone ever “THREE DOLLARS

i was perplexed as to how a few liquids were really worth more then like or even close to double the hourly wage and then she gave me the shaming stare about the whole thing

everyone at the bar was miserable were staring at me. maybe its because how good i look for my old age or whatever - then i saw a dance performance that was a retirement home and then i went to another bar but couldnt do anymore alcohol so i had this $20 pizza i ate the whole thing but it was just not that good

everyone in that kitchen looked high on marijuana dabs and the women had these like really masculine voices and really bad tattoos like the weirdest thing about the females getting a bunch of tattoos trend is they rarely have like any form or cohesion to them its like a bunch of terrible styles together or like they go to an artist who DOESNT do a style that they want usually and they are unwilling to do the research into finding a true trad artist so like they just get whatever

but thats the most cringe thing about modern women. they just do what they like - with no open mind of what could be better and they jsut impulsivly do things and it makes the whole thing about tattoos bad. i will say when they do get good ones they look better then they do on guys but you know what i mean

so then i make my way to get another piece of food because its 9pm and im 40 min from my house and my daughter wants to get wings from this bar i use to take her to (PB&J) wings but ofcourse they are out so we get millenial burgers that are like $20 and the bun is literally like those dollar buns from the discount section at the grocery store they cant even spend the extra 50 cents a bun to at least get past the impression its gourmet in the uncanny valley of millenial foods

and then they add some literal 5$ surcharge i literally dont understand. which is why i never have anymore then like $2 in my actual bank account and only transfer from some trading account before purchase because of the amount of like ghost transactions that occur in this way -

anyways the most beautiful part of my weekend is time with my daughter - she is much older. she is 40. i am 63 years old. i really enjoy my time with her. lately i have been feeling like really the best things right now are hanging out with her and my books and my writing.

also i deleted a lot of apps man. i know things in some light are bad and i know im complaining about millenial burgers but i mean people need to like dream big and take some ownership. i know boomers made everything like so expensive and they never had to deal with the walking on the blade as much as you will as younger people but truth is like we really all spend our time and we dont really learn

i will tell you i was very close to such a banger trade but it isnt because the world is a scam i truly see the error in my own ways. im at my fake job and bouncing back and fourth between screens and a phone and like i need to have a broader idea of the market because like i said

really - a trader should only be taking trades that truly are bangers and being extra fucking patient because i look for scalps daily that really is such poverty thinking - it is - like really your looking for trades that are 3X -10X non of this bull shit of like 20% scalps because the market is irrational that much winning back to back is really really bad for your health the mental health cant check yourself you know what i mean

so there is like a few ways to do this - you can be extra random scalp SPX contracts let them ride but ideally you havelike 20,000 account - and im working with like 1500 so im tryna get that shit to 10k but it isnt so just “make a trade everyday

you know i use to see some thing about you only need 2x trades but i am starting to see they are just harder to get set up

so i have the extra moniter and im doing some really really patient work here

like just letting letting things come to me and still sticking with SPX

i thought about doing it this way before but im jsut a sensitive old man and it takes time to grow

anyways this week is probably gonna blow a little i gotta be ready for that -

funeral ect ect

lots of family stuff

just gonna bring my books around and try and make the best of it

cant get drunk (alcohol just doesnt hit lately)